Here we are...

Just off the Port Bow—a place of uncertainty, adventure, and insight. Thank you for your ears, eyes and hearts. I hope to bring compassion, grace and beauty to your day.

Aversion is like this...

Aversion is like this...

Work to be done and don't want to do it!

There is a job at hand. It is mostly mindless. I have the time to do it. I am in a quiet place where it is just a matter of focus and action. And...my mind is like a cockroach running from the flashlight that is seeking it out. 

A sound...what is it? Can I pay attention to this instead of to the job at hand?
A sight...has my view of the scene outside this window changed? Something interesting to pay attention to instead of the job at hand?
Snow falling...so many flakes, so many flickers of ideas floating and falling in my mind, providing distraction.
Coffee...time to take another sip and postpone my work a bit longer.
Write a blog about this and postpone even longer!

This is all AVERSION. I feel it as a state of tumult in my brain, my belly and my limbs. The aversion tunes my ears to distraction, my eyes to fog and my mind to mush.

Where is WISDOM? What do I seek? Who am I in all of this?

There is a deep fear of judgment in this frantic avoidance dance. I'll miss something. I will find that I didn't keep records the way I should have and will have to go back and do even more work.

And...whatever conversations or thoughts or actions from yesterday that left a sour taste in my mouth and spirit (my issue or someone else's) are providing food and fuel for the aversion.  

Do you know that a cockroach has an attractive aspect? When seen up close and face to face it does not look quite so dirty and ugly. Mindfulness takes a look at the aversion I am experiencing straight up. Now I can face it and the task seems less impossible.

The Three-Legged Stool of Mindfulness

The Three-Legged Stool of Mindfulness

In and Around - Late Winter snow and shadow

In and Around - Late Winter snow and shadow